was still moody of her absence..

went to church as usual..
didnt really pay attention during the sermon..
was chatting with nicholas while sms-ing with that pig bao and my kai gor..
just ended the sunday service like that..

went home then i called her to make sure that she's ok..
on my aircond and slept..
it was raining..even nicer to sleep..
my dad woke me up to have dinner outside..
went to cheras cos they wanna eat fish..
so called nice fish to eat..
*no comment cos i dont like to eat fish*

was raining..
before, while and after our dinner..
shared some cold jokes with my parents..
they really dont have any sense of humor..lol..

came back..
on my computer..
and just being a 废人
having no purpose..
wanna blog that time but lazy..
chatted with some friends..
and there goes my night..

a friend of mine introduced my to this song...
its from jay chou's latest album..
说好的幸福呢~
its really a nice song..
had it on and on..
never get bored listening to this song..

suddenly wanna check out his friendster account..
cos yesterday night he nudged my on msn..
kononnya wanna introduce his friend to me..
found out that his account was so nicely edited..
surely not his style..
his dear did it i suppose..

looked around his profiles..
suddenly i felt i was so stupid in the past..
thought i could get back what i gave for..
总以为付出多少就能得到多少的回报~
可是事情都不是这样的~
总以为放手了对自己会好过点~
可是到现在还是会有心痛的感觉~

loving him is just a past...
i know i shouldnt think so much..
but when i see how 幸福 is him now..
the more i feel the pain..
why is this happening to me..
i thought i already let it go..
but why..

heard that song again..
and i just cried..
i dont know why..
tears just fell down..
i told myself..and i promised myself..
i wont fall 1 drop of tears for him anymore..
but i just couldnt help it...

downloaded the song..
kept repeating it on my computer..
as the song goes on...
thought of many heart-breaking sad stuff of mine..
really should let it all go now..

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