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didnt blog yesterday..
was lazy after coming back from airport..
sent my best friend back to india to continue her studies...
was so emo on the way to the airport..
feel like wanting for cry but i dont wanna let her worry so i held them in..
hoping that time wont go so fast..
that we will be apart again..

this sounds so lesbian..
but its really from the bottom of my heart..
we've been friends since primary 1..
was in the same class till primary 6...
and turned out in the same secondary school..
although we're not in the same class...
not spending much time together..
but we still see each other almost everyday..
its so weird not having her around..
as she stays near my house too..
always thinking of her whenever i go home..
cos i need to pass by her house to get back to mine..

i remember we had really the best time in primary school..
where we all were just naif kids that dont have any worries..
we could just play around like nobody's business..
but now she's not here..
she chose ti study at india..
which is a not very far place..
but i feel its really very far..
where i cant see her everyday...

i dont know why..
but i'd always take care of her..
not letting her to worry bout things that i could take care if for her..
just like a mom..
taking care of her child..
spoiling her..

as i looked at her going into the imigration counter..
i just feel like so empty..
a hole..
i just feel like crying..
but her parents were there..
i just dont dare to have a tear dropped..
the parents were chit chatting around..
i was just aside..
thinking of the fun times we had..

before she went in..
she was like 'woman, dont so emo lar..'
then i replied 'girl, woman is emo d lar..you still girl of cos wont emo..'
really was worried bout her..
but i know i cant worry too much..
cos she has to grow..
she's not a lil girl anymore..
and i cant protect her always..
she has to learn to stand up for her own..

had dinner with her parents at putrajaya..
was back home around 11++pm..
had my bath and just on the phone wid my kai gor..
told him bout her..
and my tears just dropped..
drop by drop..
every tear represents everytime i miss her..

she's been my buddy since the past, the present and future will also be..
i hope this friendship could last forever..
so i could tell my children or even grandchildren..
that she is my best friend..
now and forever..




her and me..friends forever..
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